Day +425 : Good Bye 2009

I started my treatment March 08, the chemo really knocked me down. First Chemo, OK. Second Chemo OK, After third Chemo, I was hospitalised as my hemoglobin was low, required blood transfusion . My 4th chemo delayed for a week. After my 6th Chemo, there is still some residue, so, I went to 7th Chemo. That I really suffered, in return, I am free from disease. However, doctor advised Bone Marrow Transplant is the only way to cure. I have a match donor from my younger sister. I have my Bone Marrow transplant on 1 Nov 08. Today, after 14 months, I still alive. During these period, I have admitted to hospital few times due to infections. One time, the medication has caused my blood pressure too low, I was lifeless, admitted to Intensive Care Unit for few days. If I don't make through that time, I will be 6 feet underground. So, what to complain ! I just have to say, Life is Great. Because I still breathing.

Friend, Wish You Always Healthy and Happy. Cheer !
Whatever problem you may have, don't worry , be happy. There many still fighting for their life.
人生无常，知足长乐

Day +405 : Today Activities

I am fine. Happy Birthday to Selangor Sultan.

Today activities,

7.30am Wake Up

8.00am Garden Walk

8.30am Breakfast ( A cup of Milk, walnut cakes, sweet potatoes)

10:00am Email/office works/News

11:00am Tea Break ( Strawberry + Vitamin C drink)

1:00pm - Lunch at Puteri 2( A set lunch offer - A steam fish, Union Eggs, Honey Chicken, Kai Lan - RM42 )

3:00pm - Email/Office Works

4:00pm - Tea Break ( Papaya + Milk Shake)

5:30pm - NTV 7 News

6:00pm - Playground with Xin Yi & Jin Hao

7:00pm - Dinner

Day +306 : Dizzy

I am fine.
This morning , while learning Yuan Ji Qi Qong, I suddenly feel dizzy. I just take a break and quietly sit down. The situation did not improve, I was unconscious for a few minutes, luckily they observed it, and give me a hand. Chew Loeng, the person in charge for Yuan Ji in Wawasan offered to send me back.

I think the dizziness was due to low sugar level, as I don't take any drink prior the morning exercises. This is the second time I encountered such problem. First time, I phoned Ah Siew to brought me some Milo , it work pretty well.

Here is something I loved to read when I have bad day.

If you woke up this morning

with more health than illness,

you are more blessed than the million

who won't survive the week.

If you have never experience the danger of battle,

the loneliness of imprisonment,

the agony of torture or the pangs of starvation,

you are ahead of 20 million people around the world.

If you attend a church meeting without fear of harassment,

arrest, torture, or death,

you are more blessed than almost three billion people in the world.

If you have food in your refrigerator,

clothes on your back, a roof over your head and a place to sleep,

you are richer than 75% of this world.

If you have money in the bank, in your wallet,

and spare change in a dish someplace,

you are among the top 8% of the world's wealthy.

If your parents are still married and alive,

you are very rare, especially in the United States.

If you hold up your head with a smile on your face and are truly thankful,

you are blessed because the majority can,

but most do not If you can hold someone's hand,

hug them or even touch them on the shoulder,

you are blessed because you can offer God's healing touch.

If you can read this, you are more blessed

than over two billion people in the world that cannot read anything at all.

You are so blessed in ways you may never even know.

Day +295 : Life

I am fine today.

Sometimes I get myself thinking how some people are luckier than me, how they are well-off, how some of them had better opportunities, better jobs, better lives. In other words, I am unconsciously comparing my lives with theirs. And I will find myself lacking in something, one way or the other. And that feeling of inadequacy leads me to a place called dissatisfaction. I am learning to see life in different perspective, hope this could make my life better. Always see the good side of life , will make you feel better. Share a story with you.

One day a father and his rich family took his young son on a trip to the country with the firm purpose to show him how poor people can be. They spent a day and a night in the farm of a very poor family. When they got back from their trip the father asked his son, "How was the trip? "Very good, Dad!""Did you see how poor people can be?" the father asked."Yeah!" "And what did you learn?"The son answered, "I saw that we have a dog at home, and they have four.
We have a pool that reaches to the middle of the garden, they have a creek that has no end.
We have imported lamps in the garden, they have the stars.
Our patio reaches to the front yard, they have a whole horizon.When the little boy was finishing, his father was speechless. His son added, "Thanks, Dad, for showing me how poor we are!"Isn't it true that it all depends on the way you look at things? If you have love, friends, family, health, good humor and a positive attitude toward life, you've got everything!You can't buy any of these things.

"You can have all the material possessions you can imagine, provisions for the future, etc., but if you are poor of spirit, you have nothing!"

Like we always said ..."The Grass is Always Greener ........"

Day +288 : Jin Hao & Yu Ting & Xin Yi

I am fine today. The additional drug which I took for GVHD control make me make drowsy.

Fong Ming's princess Yu Ting, is now my son, Jin Hao best friend. They are studying at same school. Everyday, either Yu Ting come to my house or Jin Hao went over to Fong Ming 's house. One of their favourite games is Masak-masak. ( Cooking)





My daughter , Xin Yi is also good friend of Yu Ting, they already know use telephone to chit-chat.

Day +280 : Planning

I am fine today. This morning I am back to morning 's qi gong class.

I dropped by to Lay Hong's shop yesterday, returning some books to her. We chit chat for nearly an hour plus. We were sharing our life story. Both of us have been experiencing the difficult episode in our life before, we have muddling through the journey.

Sometimes my colleague asked what is your plan ? I said I don't plan, but the most important thing is to have happy life every day. Life sometimes is unpredictable, appreciate what you have now. Forget the future or past.

Day +265 :

I am fine today. Tong Chai e-mail us a wise about life. Like to share with :


人之所以痛苦，在于追求错误的东西。
如果你不给自己烦恼，别人也永远不可能给你烦恼。
因为你自己的内心，你放不下。 好好的管教你自己，不要管别人。
你随时要认命，因为你是人。 这个世界本来就是痛苦的，没有例外的。
你什么时候放下，什么时候就没有烦恼。

每一种创伤，都是一种成熟。
当你烦恼的时候，你就要告诉你自己，这一切都是假的，你烦恼什么？ 根本不必回头去看咒骂你的人是谁，如果有一条疯狗咬你一口，难道你也要趴下去反咬他一口吗？ 忌妒别人，不会给自己增加任何的好处。忌妒别人，也不可能减少别人的成就。
永远不要浪费你的一分一秒，去想任何你不喜欢的人。 得不到的东西，我们会一直以为他是美好的，那是因为你对他了解太少，没有时间与他相处在一起。
当有一天，你深入了解后，你会发现原不是你想像中的那么美好。
这个世间只有圆滑，没有圆满的。 不要刻意去猜测他人的想法，如果你没有智慧与经验的正确判断，通常都会有错误的。 你要感谢告诉你缺点的人。

时间总会过去的，让时间流走你的烦恼吧！ 不要因为小小的争执，远离了你至亲的好友，也不要因为小小的怨恨，忘记了别人的大恩。
感谢上苍我所拥有的，感谢上苍我所没有的。
当你手中抓住一件东西不放时，你只能拥有这件东西，如果你肯放手，你就有机会选择别的。
人的心若死执自己的观念，不肯放下，那么他的智慧也只能达到某种程度而已。

如果你能够平平安安的渡过一天，那就是一种福气了。多少人在今天已经见不到明天的太阳，多少人在今天已经成了残废，多少人在今天已经失去了自由，多少人在今天已经家破人亡。
恶口永远不要出自于我们的口中，不管他有多坏，有多恶。
你愈骂他，你的心就被污染了，你要想，他就是你的善知识。

你不要常常觉得自己很委曲，你应该要想，他对我这样已经很好了，这就是修行的功夫。
世界原本就不是属于你，因此你用不着抛弃，要抛弃的是一切的执著。
万物皆为我所用，但非我所属。
学会用理解的，欣赏的眼光去看对方，而不是以自以为是的关心去管对方。
成熟的人不问过去；聪明的人不问现在；豁达的人不问未来。
发光并非太阳的专利，你也可以发光。
你可以用爱得到全世界，你也可以用恨失去全世界。
爱的力量大到可以使人忘记一切，却又小到连一粒嫉妒的沙石也不能容纳。
人总是珍惜未得到的，而遗忘了所拥有的。 如你想要拥有完美无暇的友谊，可能一辈子找不到朋友。
如果觉得有意思,不妨转发给你的好朋友

DAY +75 : Survive

Friend, I am lucky to write a few word in my blog today, and this is the first I am doing it at SJMC. I was admitted second second this Jan 09, due to severe lazzy, Ah Siew call SJMC's ambulance on Monday morning. My Blood pressure go down as low as 65/35. Doctor said a further delay I probably just a few step away from fatality. Due to my low immune system , I also counter minor penumia infectious which cause me cough, the antibiotic will clear it in about two weeks time.

I indeed appreciate I managed to pass this critical test, hope to speak and meet all of you soon. Do me a favour, if you have long time have not bring your family for a meal or call your mum/daddy/brother sister, do it more frequent, life sometime is unpredictable.