Day +275 : Happiness

I am fine today. I did not attend this morning exercise, I don't get a good sleep last night. So, I skip the morning qi gong class, in return I sleep through until 8:30am. I used to get up at 6:00am.

Why I can't sleep well ? probably I think too much.

Day +274 : Side effect of Prednisolon - steroid

I am fine today. I spent more time in the office now. Sometimes I spent whole day in the office. I am more actively involved in the daily business.

I have been taking steroid Prednisolon daily since my transplant as a measure to combat the GVHD. Currently the dosage rate has been reduce from 2 tablets to 1.5 tables per day.

• According to document on the Wikipedia, the side effects of Prednisolon includes:
  weight gain
  facial swelling
  depression, mania, or other psychiatric symptoms
  unusual fatigue or weakness
  Mental confusion/indecisiveness
  blurred vision
  abdominal pain
  peptic ulcer
  infections
  painful hips or shoulders
  osteoporosis
  acne breakouts
  insomnia (sleeping disorder)
  severe joint pain
  cateracts

Currently I have facial swelling and acne breakouts only

The doctor start reducing my Prednisolon dosage. It can be life-threatening to stop the drug abruptly especially for those who has taken it over a long period of time. Therefore, I would expect it will take months before I can stop taking this drug.

Day +273 : Shortness of breath

I am fine. I miss my morning qi gong class due to the rain.

I experience shortness of breath for quite sometimes. It look like I always need to breath deeper to get in the oxygen. In the same time, my heart bit also faster than normal.

It may due to medication I took. Then, I hope this symptom was slowly get away.

Day +270 : Flying Kite

I am fine.

My daughter Xin Yi has been asking me to buy her a kite many times. Kid right now is smart in negotiating deal, when I asked her to practice piano and do Kumon, in return, she want something. In order not to upset her again, I bought a kite on last Saturday, the price is RM13 , come with string as well.

I still have to avoid the sunlight, my younger sister bring them to fly the kite. I just took some photos and head back to house immediately. Xin Yi told me she enjoy the games.

Day +265 :

I am fine today. Tong Chai e-mail us a wise about life. Like to share with :


人之所以痛苦，在于追求错误的东西。
如果你不给自己烦恼，别人也永远不可能给你烦恼。
因为你自己的内心，你放不下。 好好的管教你自己，不要管别人。
你随时要认命，因为你是人。 这个世界本来就是痛苦的，没有例外的。
你什么时候放下，什么时候就没有烦恼。

每一种创伤，都是一种成熟。
当你烦恼的时候，你就要告诉你自己，这一切都是假的，你烦恼什么？ 根本不必回头去看咒骂你的人是谁，如果有一条疯狗咬你一口，难道你也要趴下去反咬他一口吗？ 忌妒别人，不会给自己增加任何的好处。忌妒别人，也不可能减少别人的成就。
永远不要浪费你的一分一秒，去想任何你不喜欢的人。 得不到的东西，我们会一直以为他是美好的，那是因为你对他了解太少，没有时间与他相处在一起。
当有一天，你深入了解后，你会发现原不是你想像中的那么美好。
这个世间只有圆滑，没有圆满的。 不要刻意去猜测他人的想法，如果你没有智慧与经验的正确判断，通常都会有错误的。 你要感谢告诉你缺点的人。

时间总会过去的，让时间流走你的烦恼吧！ 不要因为小小的争执，远离了你至亲的好友，也不要因为小小的怨恨，忘记了别人的大恩。
感谢上苍我所拥有的，感谢上苍我所没有的。
当你手中抓住一件东西不放时，你只能拥有这件东西，如果你肯放手，你就有机会选择别的。
人的心若死执自己的观念，不肯放下，那么他的智慧也只能达到某种程度而已。

如果你能够平平安安的渡过一天，那就是一种福气了。多少人在今天已经见不到明天的太阳，多少人在今天已经成了残废，多少人在今天已经失去了自由，多少人在今天已经家破人亡。
恶口永远不要出自于我们的口中，不管他有多坏，有多恶。
你愈骂他，你的心就被污染了，你要想，他就是你的善知识。

你不要常常觉得自己很委曲，你应该要想，他对我这样已经很好了，这就是修行的功夫。
世界原本就不是属于你，因此你用不着抛弃，要抛弃的是一切的执著。
万物皆为我所用，但非我所属。
学会用理解的，欣赏的眼光去看对方，而不是以自以为是的关心去管对方。
成熟的人不问过去；聪明的人不问现在；豁达的人不问未来。
发光并非太阳的专利，你也可以发光。
你可以用爱得到全世界，你也可以用恨失去全世界。
爱的力量大到可以使人忘记一切，却又小到连一粒嫉妒的沙石也不能容纳。
人总是珍惜未得到的，而遗忘了所拥有的。 如你想要拥有完美无暇的友谊，可能一辈子找不到朋友。
如果觉得有意思,不妨转发给你的好朋友

Day +263 :

I am fine today. I feel physically better compared to yesterday.

I am right now at Papa Koptiam, having few slides of toast ( butter/kaya) and a cup of tea. I must said the tea smell good. I remembered during young time, my dad used to brought us to kopitiam and the tea taste exactly the one I am drinking now. The different is , the tea at Papa cost few times more + they provide free WIFI.

Due to my mouth ulcer ,only soft food can accommodate me. Last Sunday, I was having a teabreak with Fong Ming at Secrete Recipe. I had a marble cheese cake + a cup of vanilla latte. The marble cheese cake is their award winnning product.

Day +260 : Dry Mouth

I am not feeling well today, My dry mouth have cause me a great problem in eating. I can only choose soft food. and also it irritate every I chew the food.

Dr Ala Teh told this is due to GVHD, and asked me to put cream to maintain the moisture. I hope the problem will settle down in the next few days or I think my weight will drop again.