Day+1082 :感谢

今天是我骨髓移植三周年，感谢家人和朋友的配伴，帮我渡过生命的最低潮。

學習放下

Day +1082 :感谢生活的磨砺

所看别人不顺眼，是自己修养不够。 这个我们要领悟。



在人生的旅途中，

最糟糕的境遇往往不是贫困，不是厄运，

而是精神和心境处于一种无知无觉的疲惫状态：

感动过你的一切不能再感动你，

吸引过你的一切不能再吸引你，

... 甚至激怒过你的一切不能再激怒你。

这时，人需要寻找另一片风景。
“要想改变我们的人生，

第一步就是要改变我们的心态。

只要心态是正确的，

我们的世界就会的光明的。”

Day +1079 : Melia - Family Day

Last Sunday,  our housing association organised a family day at the park. It is annual event to get people together.
I did take a lot pictures, by the time I wanted to downloading the photo, I just realise the camera is without any memory card. So, I don't have any photo with me.

We invited Puchong State assembly Datuk Satim to attend our party, he announced contribution of RM30K to upgrade our facility. The contribution is considered a lot given the fact that we only have 177 unit house.

The organiser arrange artist to draw potrait for individual, It took him about 5 to 8 minutes to complete a potrait drawing.

Day +1078 : Lai Siong - Birthday

Today, after the taiji class, we have birthday celebration for Lai Siong. You can't imagine, we are having steamboat for the breakfast. It take a lot effort to put these thing together in the Park. We have table, chair, portable gas stove....

Everybody is enjoying the party

印度靈性上師古儒吉：懂得感恩 就會快樂

有人說，人類誕於這世上是要受苦的，如果命不好，去到哪一個環境，必定是痛苦的；有些人則說，人類存在這世上是要經歷磨練，才能成長，快樂才會跟隨在後。其實最快樂的人不一定擁有最好的東西，他們只是把握和珍惜他們所得到的東西。那些曾受傷害、曾經尋覓、曾經嘗試的人是快樂的，因為他們珍惜那些曾經和他們生命擦身而過的人。

記者：現代人每天都會面對不同的挑戰，壓力在所難免，我們要如何面對呢？

古儒吉：在上場比賽射箭之前，我們需要學習掌握射箭的技術；在壓力來臨之前，我們需要做好準備，才能懂得面對各種挑戰，靈活應對就不會讓自己感到太大的壓力。自己嘗試改變生活習慣以及改變自己對事物的看法，相信自己的能力經得起別人批評的考驗，且相信自己能夠處理各種這方面的問題。在與宇宙聯繫時，就看自己能夠汲取多少能量，以提昇對事物處理的能力。不妨嘗試觀賞日落、按摩頭部及眼睛、接觸大自然、與小孩嬉戲，放鬆自己的心情。

記者：請問你又是如何解壓的呢？
古儒吉：經常保持微笑。（回答後，臉上馬上展現一個發自內心的自然笑容，讓平靜的場面泛起漣漪。）處在壓力的生活里，依然可以找到自己的快樂懂得時間管理及有效率的工作分配，可以讓自己擁有品質的時間，做有品質的事務。日子再忙，我不會擔憂自己的身體健康，只要有能量，就可以做很多事情。他看到很多人雖然處在壓力的生活里，但依然可以找到自己的快樂，因為他們都懂得感恩，並將自己的能力貢獻出來，不管在社會、監獄及學校裡，都不吝獻出自己的能力，讓弱勢一群得到大家的關懷。
其實每個人都有潛能，只不過需要一點點的提醒，就好像年輕人，需要給予指導。很多人被忙碌的生活麻醉了，埋沒了這方面的潛能，可能每個人都需要走過勞累的過程，才發現生活上欠缺一些東西，才會沉澱下來；你也可以聆聽內心的聲音，挖掘被埋沒許久的能量。
增長內在的愛與寧靜，就能獲得快樂與智慧的生活；提昇生命能量，心智能量，內在的生命能量，懷疑就會消除。看似簡單的道理，但真正做起來並不是這麼容易，就好像一個無惡不作的人，叫他立即放下屠刀，他一時很難接受，需要一些時間，慢慢接受善知識的勸諫，改造自己，成為一個好人。

記者：我們可以用愛改變人性，轉惡為善，請問我們能用愛改變大自然的惡性變化嗎？
古儒吉：我們經常走入監獄，用愛輔導囚犯，其實在“犯罪”底下有一個“受害者”不斷發出求助聲，如果我們能夠治愈“受害者”，“犯罪”就會消失。
每個人都屬於一個地球、一個家庭的一份子，每個人都有不同的文化和語言，我們生活在和諧的社會裡，不只需要外在的和諧，還包括內在深層的和諧，找到真正的和諧，就可以開拓生命的視野。
如何用愛來改變大自然的災害？人因為天災而受苦，我們要如何應對呢？很多國家在開礦時，使用很多爆炸性的事物，為了得到礦物，剝削了整個大自然已經超過它們可以負荷的程度，地震因而發生。再來，我們儘量避免燃燒塑料，這會傷害我們的身體，頻頻患上癌症是常見的事。多年前，我們沒有聽過輻射的問題，可是現在卻一直發生這類問題。如果環境延續惡化，我們又能如何調理情緒，得到平靜呢？在印度有一種說法：如果你要砍伐一棵樹之前，需要進行一個儀式，以得到樹木的允許。這是樹的秘密，允若你砍伐的同時，也要保護大自然，尊敬大自然，所以多種樹，少砍伐，大自然的生命才能延續。



揭開生命的迷思

生命有幾種糾纏，第一種是胎兒以臍帶與母親相連，在肚裡糾纏一段日子；另一種則是自己捆綁自己，對很多事情無法看得開，生活才會受盡折磨。其實生命是一種藝術，只要讓自己活得自在，就能夠體驗生活的精彩。每個小孩都知道這種藝術，只是隨年齡日漸增長，我們都忘記了這個藝術。一個開心的嬰孩，會讓身邊的人自然感到開心；一個開悟的聖者，就好像回到嬰兒時期，充滿喜悅，這對每一個人來說是有可能的，沒有一個人在嬰兒時期就是一個大人，這是不可能的。
我們就一起來討論我們自己吧！請問你們在問候身邊的朋友時，是真的問候嗎？在我們的生命中，我們經常都會說“謝謝”、“對不起”，但這只是停留在表面上，並不是發自內心真誠的說出來。當我們下機時，空中小姐會說：“祝你們有美好的一天。”每天重複講同一句話，她們會麻木。如果這一句話是從外婆口中說出來，感覺會是不一樣，她會釋放正面能量，你們是會感受得到的。生命是從真心問候開始，不管在哪裡都需要真心問候，不然生命就會出現很多困難，就好像當你演講2個小時，如果沒有發自內心的真誠和散發愛的能量，這場演講是枯燥無味，所講的都是白費。一位教授在台上用了2個小時演講關於“愛“的課題，遠遠比不上回到自己住家時，家中的狗兒撲向自己撒嬌那一秒的感覺。愛不是用講的，而是要行動。



呼吸，去除負能量
不知大家有否這種體驗，當你要接近一個人時，你並沒有對他怎樣，他卻要逃避你，這是生物能量場，根源來自於自己的能量。當你生氣時，那股生氣的震波和能量會一直圍繞你，不妨嘗試淨化呼吸法，在呼吸的當兒能夠去除負面能量，回到正面能量。嬰兒只會散發正面的能量，你不妨接觸各國嬰兒的能量，他們的磁場都是和諧的。每個人都有這種正面能量震波，去除負面得到正面能量，我們就可以散發愛與和平能量，這就是靈性。

與幾個世紀前的人類相比，我們今天要做的事情非常多，我們的需求越多，我們需要更多的責任心來完成。事情多，時間少，能量低，我們甚麼都得不到，只有得到壓力。要去除壓力，我們需要增進整個身心靈的能量，能量是要透過瑜伽、調息法和靜坐，一段時間後，你會驚訝發現，生活多了很多時間。
當你有能量和時間，你就可以承擔整個世界的責任，你的需求自然就會被滿足。這是智者的生活，他們懂得時間管理，用足夠的能量處理一切事務，完全沒有壓力。你可能會說：講是容易，做起來就不簡單。其實已有幾百萬人體驗過，你也不妨嘗試。
生命的願景就是締造無暴力、無壓力的社會、沒有疾病的身體、無困惑的心智、無陰影的記憶、無傷痛的心靈，這就是生活的藝術。誰不想要機敏的心智、內在的自由、快樂和微笑，那麼，他就不需要生活的藝術。
總有一天，我們會離開這個世界，很多人卻不敢面對，我們不妨嘗試靜坐，得到平靜，它讓你與過世的人取得一個聯繫，然後傳輸他這份安詳和平靜，我們的內心也會得到平靜，對死亡也會坦然面對。

回到原點，尋找內心最深處的自己
人要如何建立自己的自信心呢？在認識“信任”之前，我們來看看“懷疑”的本質。我們經常會懷疑“正直”，不會懷疑別人的“不正直”。一個老實人，走過人生數十年，只要做了一件不老實的事情，他就會記得這個不老實的事情，他不會懷疑別人的不老實，只會懷疑別人的老實。
有人跟你說：“我很愛你？”你會說：“真的嗎？”

有人跟你說：“我恨你！”自己卻不會問：“真的嗎？”

有人問你：“你快樂嗎？”自己可能回答：“我不確定。”


我們就是肯定自己的猶豫，相信自己不確認的一面，不要擔心“懷疑”，要接受它，甚至擁抱“懷疑”，你才會看到真實的一面。記得，烏雲不會永遠遮蓋你，只是需要一些時間，真相就會浮面。

有人問：“我們如何找到真正的自己呢？”其實很多人太過個人主義化，要提昇覺知，就要回到原點，我們需要察覺生命的7個層面，即是：身體、呼吸、心智、理智、記憶、自我和本我，每天騰出15至20分鐘靜坐，除了排除累積已久的壓力，也慢慢看到自己內心最深處的自己。



有些人會問：“我向上天祈求了很久，卻沒有兌現，這是為甚麼？”其實上天知道在甚麼時候給你最好的，所有悲慟的經驗都是讓你的生命活得更有尊嚴和深度，當你得到開心的日子，牠會讓你活得更廣闊自在。生命有愉快和不愉快的時候，在不快樂的時候，放下一切回到內在，快樂的時候，你就出來服務大眾吧！”



古儒吉簡介：

1956年出生於印度，為印度知名吠陀文學學者。

1982年創辦“國際生活的藝術基金會”，在世界各國推動“凈化呼吸法”。

1986年接受印度總理拉吉夫．甘地頒贈“瑜伽至高無上師”的榮耀。

1997年再創立“人類價值國際協會”，以促進全世界人類價值發展為目標。

他是一位靈性導師，以提昇人類價值為終身職志。目前周游於世界各國之間，以公開談話、書籍、課程等各種方式宣揚人心價值的重要。

有舍才有得

人生在世，功败垂成，皆在取舍之间。舍得守护，才有爱情；舍得花钱才有财富；舍得小利，才有朋友；舍得计较，才有幸福；舍得微笑，才有和谐；舍得酒色，才有健康；舍得世俗，才有洒脱；舍得有小得，不舍则不得。有舍才有得。

Day+1074 ：换子疑云 (Changeling)

看戏是我消漠时间主要管道。
刚刚在网线上看完这部戏，安吉莉娜-朱丽饰演的满不错。

单身母亲克里斯汀柯林斯(安吉莉娜-朱丽饰演)和她儿子沃尔特(加特林格里菲斯饰演)居住在洛杉矶，他们有着一幢不大不小的房子，克里斯汀是一家电话公司的老板，手下有无数的女性接线员。

当某天克里斯汀由于工作而晚归时，她发现自己的儿子并没有回家。在长达5个月的反复寻访之后，她被告知她的儿子在伊利诺伊州被发现。她被带去站台和孩子见面，但是当孩子出现的第一刻起，她就知道这并不是她的儿子。
而以杰杰琼斯警官(杰弗里多诺万饰演)为首的警方则对此根本不予理会。尽管沃尔特的同学、牙医、老师都坚持这并不是本人，但是在场的那个孩子却坚持说自己就是沃尔特，这也让克里斯汀有所感触，忍不住分神。
专断的警方认为克里斯汀产生了错觉，并且把她关进了精神病院。另一方面，一位一直在电台里面布道的牧师古斯塔夫布里格拉伯(约翰马尔科维奇饰演)认为这是洛杉矶警局腐败导致的恶果，并且坚决的站在了克里斯汀一边。牧师坚持要用克里斯汀的例子来攻击当局的腐朽。而更加把剧情带上高潮的是一个男孩的证词，他告诉警方一个可怕而精神失常的男人多次强迫他一起绑架并且杀害了不少男孩，沃尔特就是其中之一。其后运用交切镜头，导演把凶杀案审判和市政听证会两个重要的事件拼接在一起，把故事引向结尾

宋祖英:茉莉花

一首简单的歌曲，非常好听。

Day +1073 : JIn Hao unwell

Today, I am OK, but my son Jin Hao is no OK. He is having fever and cough. He has missed the final term exam last two days. Hopefully he can back to school by tomorrow. He prefer to stay at school than at home.

Day +1071 : Frolov's Respiration Training Devices

Last week Lay Hong visited me and brought this devices to me. This devices was bought by Yee Hong, she wanted to send it me many weeks ago. I really appreciate her caring and kindness. Currently , my lung is very weak, a little activities also cause me breathless. I believe more breathing exercises will strengthen my lung.

From the web:

Results of clinical examinations and long-run practical application of the Device indicate that it is a highly efficacious remedy against the diseases of the respiratory, cardiovascular and nervous systems.

Regular exercises normalize metabolism, enhance reserve capabilities of the body and have an anti-aging effect.

Studies in children with bronchial asthma and vegetative-vascular dystonia at Roszdrav clinics have shown that the Device has a positive effect not only on ventilation and gas metabolism, but also on the immune system and the functioning of the vegetative nervous system.
As a result of regular respiratory trainings with Frolov’s device functions of different organs and systems are gradually improved:

• ◦Bronchial conductance, normal ventilation and gas metabolism are recovered.
• ◦Short breath, coughing and asphyxia disappear, medication intake by patients with chronic respiratory disorders decreases by 60% — 80%.
• ◦Blood supply to myocardium and brain and the condition of capillary blood circulation gets back to normal.
• ◦Blood, lymph and spinal fluid circulation improve significantly.
• ◦Indicators of electrocardiogram, cardiointervalography, renovasography, blood pressure and pulse improve.
• ◦The condition of the nervous system improves and its tonus normalizes.
• ◦Regulatory capabilities of the body nervous and humoral systems recover, the amount of oxygen available in the blood rises, hypoxia disappears.
• ◦Psycho-emotional state improves (mood and work capacity get elevated, sleep gets back to normal and irritability lowers).
• ◦Cell metabolism and general metabolism improve.
• ◦Dynamics of humoral immunity becomes positive.
• ◦Misbalance of serum antibodies and indicators of peripheral blood decrease, local immunity gets back to normal.
• ◦Adaptive capabilities of the body increase.
• ◦Aging processes slow down.

  

Day +1068: Pot Luck

Every Friday, after the taiji and yuan ji class, we have a pot luck gathering. Today, we have fried rice and white carrot soup from Eve, vege sandwich from Sia, red /green bean kuih from Cindy, fried mee from Yeok, coffee from Ivy, guava from JC and  ...... Just too many to name it.
These how I enjoy my early retirement life. Having friends , sharing you joy and sorrow, make your life more fullfillment.

+Day +1067 : Heart Attack

莪姐 is one of our taiji member in Taman Wawasan, age 70+. She is very active participate the morning class, a very cherish woman. we always have a pot luck  gathering on every friday after the taiji, where verybody bring some food to share with.

This morning, I was shock when Ivy told me her husband pass away due to heart  attack. I just visited them last Saturday after a Sia's birthday party.  
I understand the family did bring their father for treatment , but the doctor said it is just a stomachache.

It's vital that we learn the warning signs of a heart attack. These are:

• Chest discomfort. Most heart attacks involve discomfort in the center of the chest that lasts for more than a few minutes, or goes away and comes back. The discomfort can feel like uncomfortable pressure, squeezing, fullness, or pain.
• Discomfort in other areas of the upper body. Can include pain or discomfort in one or both arms, the back, neck, jaw, or stomach.
• Shortness of breath. Often comes along with chest discomfort. But it also can occur before chest discomfort.
• Other symptoms. May include breaking out in a cold sweat, nausea, or light-headedness.

Surviving a Heart Attack

• How do you survive a heart attack? Fast action is your best weapon against a heart attack. Why? Because clot-busting drugs and other artery-opening treatments can stop a heart attack in its tracks. They can prevent or limit damage to the heart–but they need to be given immediately after symptoms begin. The sooner they are started, the more good they will do–and the greater the chances are for survival and a full recovery. To be most effective, they need to be given ideally within 1 hour of the start of heart attack symptoms.

 

Day +1067 :，“死神来了，怎么办？”

上个星期日，我和德安，錦荣 ，去听慧門法師专题講座，“死神来了，怎么办？”他说“因为我们的妄念太多，才会造成我门对死忙的恐悸，唯有停止动念，才会豁然接受死亡”

Day +1062 :懷念 -史蒂夫·乔布斯（1955—2011)

乔布斯的经典语录 关于生活

做一名海盗比参加海军更有趣。（1982，引自《奥德赛：从百事可乐到苹果》（1987）

*** 小时候，我们看着电视，觉得里面藏着什么阴谋。网络让我们噤声。随着年岁渐长，你认识到事实并不是这样。网络是一门生意，人们想要什么，它就能给你什么。那是一种无比让人沮丧的想法。阴谋是乐观的！你可以开枪杀了这个混蛋！我们可以来一场革命！但网络真的一门生意，能给人们他们想要的东西。这就是事实。[《连线》杂志，1996年2月]

*** 我是一个乐观主义者，因为我相信，人是高尚的，是可敬的，其中一些还确实很聪明。我会非常乐观地看待个体——因为作为个体，我们的本性是善良的。而不知为什么，我对于团队的看法要更加悲观。当我看到我们的国家——一个在很多方面都是世界上最幸运的国家——正在发生的事情时，我一直感到非常担心。我们似乎对于为了我们的子孙后代将我们的国家建设得更加美好这样的事情不感兴趣。[《连线》杂志，1996年2月]

 *** 你不可能充满预见地将生命中的点点滴滴串联起来。只有在你回头看的时候，你才会发现这些点点滴滴之间的联系。所以，你要坚信，你现在所经历的一切都将或多或少与你的未来产生关联。你必须相信某些东西——你的决心、命运、生活、因缘际会等等。这种信仰从来没有让我感到失望，（相反，）它让我的人生变得与众不同。[2005.7，斯坦福大学毕业典礼上的讲话] 你的工作将会是你生活中很大一部分，唯一能使自己得到真正满足的是，做你认为是伟大的工作。做一份伟大工作的唯一方法是：热爱你所做的工作。如果你还没有找到这样的伟大工作，那就继续寻找吧。不要妥协。[2005.7，斯坦福大学毕业典礼上的讲话]

*** 记住我即将死去是我一生中得到的最重要的工具，它帮助我作出了生命中的重大抉择。因为几乎所有的事情——包括所有的外部期望、所有的荣耀、所有对难堪或失败的恐惧——都会在死亡面前烟消云散，留下的则是真正重要的东西。记住你即将死去是我知道的能让避免陷入你会失去某些东西这一想法的最佳方式。你已经一无所有，那就没有理由不去坚持自己的梦想。[2005.7，斯坦福大学毕业典礼上的讲话]

*** 我认为，如果你做了某件事而成果还不错，那么你应该试着去做其他更好的事情，而不要长时间地沉溺于斯。要搞清楚接下来该做什么。[2006.5，NBC晚间新闻]

*** 最后一件事 没有任何人希望死去，即使人们梦想着能上天堂却依旧没有人真的想这么做。死亡对于我们每一个人来说是终点，没有任何人能够逃脱。事实就是如此。因为死亡可能是生命最棒的发明，它是生命的调节剂，旧的不去新的不来，现在的你光鲜亮丽充满活力抱负，可是假以时日，你将逐渐老去。抱歉这充满了戏剧性，但它就是这样。 你的时间是有限的，所以不要浪费时间活在别人的生命里，不要迷信教条－－那意味着你将活在其他人的想法里。不要让他人的意见的噪音淹没你的内心。最重要的是，永远要有勇气去跟随你心与直觉，只有它们才能知道你真正想要的是什么。其他一切都是次要的。[2005.7，斯坦福大学毕业典礼上的讲话]

Day +1061 : self worth

A feeling of self worth is an important part of being able to relaxed properly. If we are not really sure of our own identity, it cause conflict that will soon spill over into every area of our lives. Learning to accept yourself for who you are will give you a wonderful feeling of inner peace. When you avoid giving negative opinions of yourself to others or even just to yourself, they will soon begin to feel a change. Learning to write and say your own affirmation each day will quickly boost your feelings at self worth and motivate positive change in your life. This is part of things I learn during the basic course by Art Of Living.

Day +1060 : Relaxed

Life can be very stressful, and to deal with it effectively on a day to day basic, we need to know how to relax at the right time and allow our worries to drift away. Relaxation is always allows us o bring thing back into perspective and bestows the welcome gift of peace to trouble mind. if you can not relax, the stress quickly build up until it becomes unbearable.  Unlucky, being able to relax when we need to is not is gift that comes naturally to many of us. It is something that we need to learn.To be totally relaxed , we need to be able to let go in mind, body and spirit. The way we breathe is one of the most powerful tools we have to calm both mind and body. If you can learn to breathe slowly and rhythmically, really focus on each breath, you will soon find the tension begins to flow away.  This is the experience I have learn in meditation.

Day +1050 :房價

Lim Seng Chew 2011年9月23日星期五 大馬經濟會被房產泡沫拉入痛苦的深淵 下面的數據採自《資匯》轉載自大馬統計局和產業服務與估計局。

吉隆坡房價是RM448750，人均GDP收入是RM51197，房價是收入的8.76倍。 雪蘭莪房價是RM318909，人均GDP收入是RM14830，房價是收入的21.50倍。 砂拉越房價是RM262155，人均GDP收入是RM30318，房價是收入的8.64倍。 檳城房價是RM213172，人均GDP收入是RM29569，房價是收入的7.20倍。
彭亨房價是RM146155，人均GDP收入是RM19974，房價是收入的7.31倍。
登嘉樓房價是RM145715，人均GDP收入是RM16994，房價是收入的8.57倍。 柔佛房價是RM141448，人均GDP收入是RM18458，房價是收入的7.66倍。
森美蘭房價是RM131689，人均GDP收入是RM23600，房價是收入的5.58倍。 吉蘭丹房價是RM131689，人均GDP收入是RM7585，房價是收入的17.36倍。 馬六甲房價是RM129332，人均GDP收入是RM22761，房價是收入的5.68倍。 吉打房價是RM128054，人均GDP收入是RM12630，房價是收入的10.13倍。
霹靂房價是RM122839，人均GDP收入是RM14769，房價是收入的8.31倍。
玻璃市房價是RM115072，人均GDP收入是RM14457，房價是收入的7.95倍。

正常情況下，房價不應該超過收入的6倍，可馬來西亞幾乎都超過此數。 尤其要注意一點，就是大馬人民年收入比人均GDP收入的數據還要低，所以倍數差距更大，特別是吧生谷一帶，房價泡沫尤其嚴重。 大馬政府長年用低利率刺激房價上漲，促進表面繁榮，但人民越來越窮，而這虛假的榮景也會隨著房地產泡沫破裂而結束，大馬經濟會被房產泡沫拉入痛苦的深淵。..

 

Day+1049：Meditation

Two weeks ago, I was attending a six days course on meditation. Like to thanks Susan Ng, Irene Lim , our class teacher for their caring and sharing.  During the course, we learn breathing technique to eliminate stress, ancient wisdom for better living

Day +1040 ; 听你说

我很幸运，有一班好朋友非常关心我。,人的一生能擁有一班真心的朋友,真的能用­不枉此生來形容了

Day +1030 : Art of Living

Today , I am fine.
Lay Hong have recommended me to visit the website of the Art of Living.
One of the course is improving our breathing technique, I have registered to participate the 6 days course. 7:30pm to 10:30pm for first 5 days, and 2pm to 7pm at Saturday and 9am to 5pm Sunday.

via specific natural rhythms of the breath which harmonize the body, mind and emotions. This unique breathing technique eliminates stress, fatigue and negative emotions such as anger, frustration and depression, leaving you calm yet energized, focused yet relaxed.

I have attended 2 days course, and found it quite useful to enhance my breathing capacity.

Day +1007 : Follow Up

Today, I have a follow up at IPR ( Institute Perubatan Respiratori) - Institute Medical of Respiratory.
The follow up is about once a month. This is my third time appointment, however I still don't have chanced to meet with my principal Doctor. Each time, I have different doctor seeing me, and they just fill up the progress report without exam you in details.
Today, the culture results also confirm I have Non-TB micro bacteria. I have the similar test conducted at Sunway in Feb 2011.

Day +1006 : Dog - Pomeranian

My neighbour Mr Wong bought a Pomeranian dog, named MayLuck. I just recalled Thailand first women Prime Minister, also have LUCK in her name, INGLUCK. Me and Xinyi enjoy playing with the the dog.

From WIKI,
"Pomeranians are typically a very friendly and lively breed of dog. They love to be around their owners and are known to be protective of them.[9] They bond quickly with their owners, and can suffer from separation anxiety if not trained to spend time alone.[10] Pomeranians are alert and aware of changes in their environment and barking at new stimuli can develop into a habit of barking excessively in any situation. They are somewhat defensive of their territory and will thus bark when they encounter any outside noises.[10] Pomeranians are intelligent dogs, respond well to training, and can be very successful in getting what they want from their owners.[9]"

兩隻小豬的爆笑對話

Day +1004 : Piano test

I am fine.

Yesterday, Stanley brought me few more books to read. I just completed a book about cycling round the Taiwan island. Now, reading a new book about a man with his dog.

Today, my daugther Xin Yi is sitting her Grade 3 , piano practical test at Hilton Hotel. The exam last for about 12 minutes. She said not doing that well this time. I comforted her that things may not be that worse as she think.
Coincident my U mate, Tew - land surveyor also bringing his daughter to do sit for the piano test as well. Tew is staying in Puchong Hartamas, just next to Bandar Puteri.

Last week, Ivy told me, Mr & Mrs Chin were hit by a motorbike. Mr Chin survive with bruises, but Mrs Chin don't. They were walking to attend the Tai Zi class at Taman Wawasan, the motorbike who is newspaper delivery man, hit them in the middle, Mrs Chin suffered serious internal bleeding. We have celebrated Mrs Chin birthday last year, we are the Yuangji members. I feel sorrow for Mr Chin losing his partner, they are such a loving retired couple. There is nothing in the world can be impacted so much than losing a love one.

Day +1000: Thankyou

Today marked the 1000th day of my bone marrow transplant.

I would like to thank every one of you who gave me tremendous support in facing this challenging episode of life; my wife, dad and mum, my sisters & brother, relatives, classmates, friends, colleagues. A thousand days only possible with you.

Day +998: Miracle in The Andes

I am fine today, despite being annoy by numbness and tinnitus.

This is the second time I have this book.

This review is from: Miracle in the Andes: 72 Days on the Mountain and My Long Trek Home. Piers Paul Read wrote the great book Alive and after an excellent movie it could be thought there was little more left to the actual story. Wrong. Nando Parrado adds much much more to this survival story and doesn't re-tell like Read but lets you know what happened to him and his emotions on the mountain. This is a great companion to the classic book. Most (myself included) wanted to be Nando - he was strong, and saved his friends through unreal internal fortitude - he's a genuine hero. His is one of the most compelling survival stories in recorded history and this is a worthy memoir.

Where Read lets you know what happened Parrado lets you know the why's and how's they survived - the real heart of this story. He let's the reader know in more detail the miserable existence on the mountain. When you read his thought "tears waste salt" it might sound cold hearted but it was the RIGHT thought and you begin to understand his inner strength. His thoughts about his family are touching, his feelings about his great father are insightful - what a fortunate son, what a fortunate father. Without his father the disappearance of the plane would remain a mystery.

In an interview Roberto Canessa once said the survivors know each other better than anyone. I really didn't understand that until reading this book. Parrado also sheds light on some negative depictions of survivors in Read's book and it helps the reader understand their actions. I also enjoyed reading what happened to Parrado after the incident and how the words and behavior of his friends who died on the mountain has influenced him. It took Parrado a long time to realize how inspirational his story is and it's great he's written his story. Make no mistake; this story is not about cannibalism, it is about love, survival and determination. I'm a better person for having read this book.

Day +994: Good Doctor

I am fine today. In the last three years, I have consulted many specialist, some of them are good , they listen and care about your progress, even giving you discount.
Some of them just don't have time to listen the details, they are arrogant and inpatient.

Extracted an article from Dr.Hsu, what is good doctor.

"
如何鑑定一位好醫師--「良醫七要件」

　　生病要找醫師，如果遇到密醫或蒙古大夫，輕者浪費金錢時間，重者誤診誤醫

。而一位良醫，即使無法讓您藥到病除，至少會指引您另請高明。過去無執照的密

醫很多，現在的醫師雖然有執照，但隨著時代的變遷，也變得急功近利，短視而缺

德，或過度自我保護、或自我膨脹，一切以己身利益著想。昔日醫師誓詞所求，對

病患的無限奉獻與服務，早丟到九霄雲外了。當然好的醫師依然很多，但如何去分

辦？以下幾點可供參考：

（一）口碑：

　　　大家都說好，雖不是十全十美，至少有可信度的，值得去瞭解。

（二）仔細聆聽病情：

　　　問診是所有診斷的第一步驟，只有詳細的病史，才能作正確的判斷。

（三）詳細的身體檢查：

　　　問診之後，就是觸診或聽診，這是診斷的基本功夫，是不容疏忽的。經由醫

　　　師專業的知識與雙手的靈巧，誤診的可能自會降低。

（四）安排適當的檢查：

　　　有了問、觸、聽診之後，醫師就其必要會安排各種必要的檢查以協助診斷或

　　　治療，每一種檢查都有其目的與判讀限制或危險性，醫師應會詳細解說。

（五）完整的病情說明：

　　　適所有資料齊全，醫師必定會給以充分的解說，或已有診斷、或治療分析、

　　　或疾病癒後、或如何防治等等。

（六）全面性的完全服務：

　　　不知為不知是知也，這是至理名言。醫學如瀚海，沒有一位醫師能十項全能

　　　，會診或指引其另請高明，就是醫德的表現。病人所有問題，大如病情惡化

　　　，小如飲食起居都應給以正確的安排。

（七）定期的主動追蹤：

　　　一次的治療，未必代表是痊癒。尤其是許多慢性病是要長期治療或追蹤的。

　　　除了要告知病家定期回診外，更應該主動追蹤，如電訪、問卷、居家護理等

　　　等。醫療服務是永不間斷的。

各位病家如果以以上「良醫七要件」來鑑別您的醫師，自然會得到好的醫療服務。

Day +994: A Cancer Survival Story

"這是一本癌症的聖經，是我七年來診治過4千位癌症病人的臨床經驗，這4千位老師告訴我們成功與失敗，生與死！告訴我們痛苦、逃避、無知、感恩、無懼、視死如歸------"

From http://www.nsshu.com/

如何成為一位好的病家--「好病家五要求」
　　生病是痛苦的事，所有的病家都希望趕快找醫師早點藥到病除。但是很多病家卻不知道如何做好一位好病人，結果是延誤病情而自討苦吃。要成為一位好病人應做到以下數點：

（一）養成愛護自己的習慣：

　　　很多人不知愛護自己，吃喝玩樂、熬夜失眠、悲觀喪志、或積勞成疾。如不改善這些狀況，病情只有加重。相反如果懂得愛護自己者，病情往往輕較而容易康復。

（二）有病時及早就醫：

　　　每個人都會生病，而小病大病在初期常常是分辨不出來。及早就醫是唯一之途。任何延誤都可能導致嚴重的後果。

（三）不自行醫治或道聽途說：

　　　中國人生病時最不好的習慣，就是懶得就醫而自行醫治，或道聽途說、接受不正當醫療。常常在未有正確診斷前，就接受一大堆民俗療法、或自購成藥、禁藥胡亂醫治。

（四）多方面瞭解而具備醫療常識：

　　　一般人的醫療常識多半非常缺乏，一旦生病若非早日就醫，往往毫無警覺，放任病情惡化。有了基本醫療常識，既可瞭解醫師的解說，又能早作預防，使大病變小病，小病變無病。

（五）多尋求第二意見：

　　　並非每次生病，病情都單純；也並非都能遇到良醫，因此如發現病情不進展或有惡化之虞，而醫師並未有滿意的說明或加強治療，則應另找其他醫師尋求所謂「第二意見」（second opinion）。經過多方面的意見加以考慮，誤辦的機會自會減少。

良醫與好病家在一起，共同詳細的討論病情，提出治療的步驟，遇有任何問題，都 能立刻解決，彼此互信互賴，創造美好的醫病關係。

Day +993 : 白果龙眼白木耳汤

阿秀的同学 margaret (http://margaret147.blogspot.com/) 在网上的食譜之一。 我非常喜喝龙眼汤. 昨天阿秀得意煮了这道饮品 。味道还真不错，喝了三大碗。

From Margaret Blog，

"这种汤在我家可是常常都可以喝到的哦，因爲白木耳是窮人的燕窩,对皮膚和肿部都有滋潤的作用。1朵白木耳 20粒莲子（去心) 5粒紅枣 5粒龙眼 冰糖 水隨意 做法： 把木耳浸软，涨大，剪成小块，用沸水烫过木耳及紅枣,再用slow cooker煮大約一小时，同时把连子放入叧一个pot加水和糖煮至软，当木耳已软化后，加入龙眼，白果及莲子再煮三十分钟，便可享用了"

Day +992: 遺憾

最近在Chee Khoon Blog讀 到一封轉寄郵件，內容是關於臨危病人對人生的五大遺憾。我讀了非常有共鳴，所以希望與大家分享。
其實這是一位照料垂危病人的護士從許多病人的遺言中所整理出來的一則文章 CheeKhoon 把這一則文章的一些摘要列出來。
一：一生只活在別人的期望下，沒有活出自己。
二：用盡一生的時間換取金錢，而忽略了兒女的成長過程。
三：沒有發表自己的主見。即使事與願違，也只選擇忍氣吞聲。
四：沒有花足夠的時間與好朋友聯繫。
五：沒發現快樂其實是一種選擇，而沒有選擇快樂地生活。
總概來說，人都會為一些沒有做的事情而遺憾，但都不會為一些失敗的事情留下遺憾。所以，我們都應該去做那些想做卻還沒做的事情，以免為人生留下遺憾

Day+911 ：Lost in Horizon

Today, I am fine.

Stanley have brounght me more books to read, related to travelling and picture book.

I read about a book a day. I like " Lost in Horizon".

The story of a group of people who survive an airplane crash in Tibet and find shelter at a mysterious monastery is extremely well known, but unlike most novels, Lost Horizon is less about its characters and their situation--interesting though those elements may be--than it is about their thoughts and ideas. Written as it was on eve of World War II, these thoughts and ideas center upon developing a way of life that preserves, rather than destroys, that which is finest in both humanity and the world in general.
The novel is elegantly and simply written and possesses tremendous atmosphere. Although enjoyable as a purely "fun" read, it is also thought provoking, and the thoughts it provokes linger long after the book is laid aside. I can not imagine any one not being moved by the book, both emotionally and intellectually, regardless of their background or interests. If such a person exists, I do not think I would care to meet them.

Although James Hilton wrote a number of worthy novels, Lost Horizon is the novel for which he is best remembered, a great popular success when first published and a genuine masterpiece of 20th Century literature.

Day +990 : Oxgen concentrator

I am fine.

Yesterday, Teck Ann helped me to return the oxygen concentrator machine to the supplier. I have rented for three months. The rental is about RM300 per month. It help to ease the breathless situation. My current SP02 is 92%, normal >95%.

It delivered continuous flow of process ambient air at various liter per minute with an associated percentage oxygen. Example, at 0 liter per minute (room air ), 21% oxygen. At 3 liter per minute, 33% oxygen.

Day +989 : Wisdom

The wise person tends to include people of different ages in their celebrations because that represents the authentic make-up of extended families. It is a great gift o have our parents, grandparents with us to mark significant events in our live.

At age 66, my father finally get the citizenship. He will do his first blue color identity card end of July.

Many find the time to attend funeral but fail to realise that a rose for the living is better than a banquet for the dead. It takes wisdom to waste time with our loved ones while they are still with us.

Day +988 : Nerves

Today, I am fine.

Have some articles to share with.
While animals focus on present, only humans sit and worry about what will happen three years from now if I do that or this.
Worry is something we can't help doing. It is part of our nature as a species that thinks and rationalises. Most of us living in the city probably walk around in a state of perpetual nervousness. There are KPI and deadliness to meet, mortgages and bills to pay , the family's security, job security.... the list could go on. Even taking a a vacation can be nerve wracking because halfway through you are wandering if your boss has caught on that you're not quite indispensable.

Henrik Edberg, creator of the Positivity Blog and author of Art of Relaxed Productivity, suggests asking yourself What is the worst that could happen ? How will it affect you in the long run ? In many cases you will find that the answer boils down to "no really that much". It is easy to get too wrapped up in what is about to happen and magnify the event and possible consequences in your mind until it seems like it's a matter of life and death. It seldom is. Asking a few sample questions can put things into a healthier perspective and calm you down.

Just remember, you're your own worst enemy.

Day >+980 : Numbness

I have asked Dr Alan recommended a neuro specialist, if he can help to tackle the numbness. Dr Ng , the Neurologist put me on Neurotin and Amitriptyline.
As usual, I check the side effect on these drug on web site.

Neurotin used to relied nerve related pain. It make you drowsy.
Amitriptyline typical used to reduce the depressive symptom. It cause drowsiness and dry mouth. It also used to treat neurological pain.

Yes, it help to reduce the numbness, but the side effect is too much. I have stopped it, probably only use it when the numbness is unbearable.

Day >+930 Days : Update

I am not OK.

Besides breathless, I also having great numbness in hand and feet, a sensation feel like needle prick. These numbness is extreme and last hours, and there is no quick solution. It take times for nerves to recover.
My breathing have been improve a lot, I can't even take bath by myself in May due to breathless, Now, I can handle it . We have a night-tea with Teck Ann & wife last Saturday night.

Day +915 : Breathless

I have been admitted to IPR ( Institute Prubatan Respirotori) - Institute Medicine Respiratory since 18 May , to treat my breathless issue. I just conducted the brocholities scoping to determine what are the major infectious cause. Doctor said it take 4 to 6 week go get the final results. I really hope they able to find out the reason, it is tough to suffer from breathless.

Day +861 : Pot luck march 2011

We have pot luck party at Fong Ming house last week. We are having the steamboat party. Teck Ann brought us fried mee hoon and curry chicken. We just can't finished the food.

Day +800: Singapore Sentosa Resort Visit

I am fine today.

Our Singapore trip , main destiny is Genting Sentosa Resort. We spent a day at the resort.
I have book the tickets to Universal Studio on line, a week before the trip. On that day, there are no more ticket available as they limit number of visitors into the Studio.

Day +800 - UK Farm ( Kluang) Visit

I am fine. Today marked 800 days since my transplant. I have a week holiday last month. But I also hospitalised for 5 days to treat my lung infections after the holiday. Now, everything is back to normal.

We visited UK Farm on 18 Dec 2010, the farm is about 70 football size. They only have only goats and few ostriches. Visitors are given the chance to experience to be farmer.

+Day : 796 : My Birthday

I am fine.

Today is my birthday, I wish to stay healthy for the whole year of 2011, away from hospital and infections.

We have a week holiday at JB/Singapore. During the trip, we visited Hock Lin. He brought us to UK Farm at Kluang, the kids enjoyed the most.